One of the prettiest songs about one of the worst feelings. I’ve felt it before. I hope I never feel it again.

Maybe I’m just in a haze lately, but all that seems to stir me is loud pop punk, mixes from high school or really sad folk. Or maybe that’s just how I always am, and I’m trying to flatter myself. But yeah, this song, cut and dry. The pangs of moving on, emphasized in chromatic notes, gorgeous harmony and the wavering-just-so,  barely-there-vibrato of the amazing Joy Williams. Her voice after the second chorus sends chills through my entire body that just make me want to make music, or collapse and never get up until someone I love picks me up. Maybe both.


“Haven’t you seen me sleep walking?
‘Cause I’ve been holding your hand
Haven’t you noticed me drifting?
Oh, let me tell you, I am


Tell me it’s nothing
Try to convince me
That I’m not drowning
Oh let me tell you, I am


Please, please tell me you know
I’ve got to let you go
I can’t help falling
Out of love with you


Why am I feeling so guilty?
Why am I holding my breath?
Worry ’bout everyone but me
I just keep losing myself


Tell me it’s nothing
Try to convince me
That I’m not drowning
Oh let me tell you, I am


Please, please tell me you know
I’ve got to let you go
I can’t help falling
Out of love with you


Won’t you read my mind?
Don’t you make me lie here
And die here
Please, please tell me you know
I’ve got to let you go
I can’t help falling
Out of love with you”
~Falling
The Civil Wars, Barton Hollow

I don’t want to give up the best love I’ve ever had. But do you have to give up something you love to get the rest of the world? How do you know what’s worth holding onto? I don’t think you ever do…rather I think that’s a decision you make for yourself…but, sometimes, what you’re holding onto is slipping away and there’s nothing you can do but let it happen, and feel the pain as you feel your heart change.